Sometimes you try and fail...

If I step back and look at things I tend to ask why God...

I tried so hard to make it to church on Sunday but Faith woke up screaming and throwing up. It took us 2 hours to get her calmed down and then it had passed we could no longer make it. How do I get past this? How do I make it?

The weekend was horrible for Faith. She cried most of the weekend and was attached to my hip. She is now running a fever and she is complaining about her back and wants to just sit with mom. I love her and I just want to hug her but I am at a loss. She needs me all the time and I need some me time. Well atleast no ER visits this week and I spent some time with a friend on Sunday. That really made my month since I do not get to do anything normally.

The other girls are good and had a good weekend. My sister Linda was in town last week and she was great to have here. I miss her now that she is gone. I really liked hanging out with her. My sister Dina is still in the hospital and my mom is having surgery today. So our family could really use your prayers.

Well, that is my update for now.

Blessings-Jen

Send prayers our way...

Well it has been a crazy couple of days... My sister had surgery yesterday and my mom is due to have surgery next Monday. Emotionally I am on a rollercoaster and I think that I want off this ride but for some reason I can't...

Faith is not doing good. Her tanturms are getting worse and worse and she is so sensitive. Her SID to going nuts. I have made a connection of her SID with TCS and it make perfect sense. She flips out about everything and wants me all the time. She is a complete pain in the butt at times.

We have decided to homeschool her and grandma is going to help during the day. What a blessing this is!!! Praise God. Please pray that I can raise the money for the school books. It is going to cost about $500 for all that we need to get started.

She is complaining about a lot of nerve pain in her feet and legs. she ripped open her feet trying to make it stop. She did not understand what was going on with it. She does not want to wear anything on her feet anymore. No socks.. no shoes... It drives her nuts...

Well I think that is a good update for now.
Thank you all for your prayers... she is feeling them each and every day.

The insanity goes on...

These past few weeks have been insane and I think that Faith finally has had enough. She spent all day in bed yesterday... while her and I did.

She screamed all morning, she has a bad rash and she is just a mess. Her flushes are getting more and more differcult to do and she cries through them. We are having a real time with her going to school. She is either running a fever, in pain and just plain too crabby to go anywhere. I am at a loss as to what to do. Should I keep sending her even though she only can go 2-3 times a week or should I be done with the stress and confusion and just home school her. I wish God could help me find the answer to that one.

Today I do not feel strong. Today I feel weak, I feel defeated, I feel like the days just get worse and I am not sure when they will just get right.

Every week that I try to go to church I just find myself in the middle of a complete break down- the past 5 weeks every Sunday is a complete and otter break down with Faith.

Well all I have to say is pray for us- pray hard for us because right now that is all we know and that is all we need.

Blessings-Jen